I don’t have Writers Block!!

31 Jan

I felt I needed to write another post in response to a comment about me suffering from writers block in my last post, Reflections of the toffee type.

Maybe I am in denial, but I really do not believe I have writers block. Let’s roll back the clock somewhat and see what I have achieved in the past 12 months.

Now I know many busy people have children so I am not saying ‘look at me, I’m a mummy’ but I do believe it is a valid point to be noted when we look at work levels.

So the first half of 2011 saw me completing my degree, which resulted in a first class honors and I am immensely proud of what I achieved. During that time, I completed A Simple Guide to Self Publishing, and tried real hard to promote it blah blah blah.

I also had a ten thousand word creative writing project in which I started my first novel. The result was the first three chapters and a full synopsis. Eager to continue I worked out full character bio’s, and a ‘post it note’ scene breakdown. Shortly after completing my degree, my computer died and I temporarily lost my work which by that time was at 20 odd chapters. Several months later when the work was recovered, I had lost heart in the story. If I am honest, during this time I didn’t have writers block, just writers depression. The part where you decide you cant do it, feel the effort is not worth it and wonder why you ever started.

Being sensible, I didn’t dwell on it, just chose to take a break.

During this time, I had started acting as editor for several writers, a role which I continue still.

By the end of August, I had found employment, and other than those precious hours of an evening, I didn’t get time to write.

It was at this time that ‘A Cuppa’ came along. Spotting a worthwhile project, I grabbed it with both hands and worked non stop (at least three hours every evening, on top of the kids and my day job). This finished in December and I think it is fair to say I collapsed. I had done too much, too quickly.

But I still wasn’t writing. Now we are on the eve of February, and I still haven’t put pen to paper.

That doesn’t mean however that I have writers block. Far from it. The recent posts that have been based around food (unintentionally) have been more about me getting back into writing, blogging, just testing the water. How much time can I commit? What should I allow my limit to be? Am I ready to go again?

Take a deep breath, yes, yes I am. And I am really quite excited.

I have two projects burning away, just waiting for me to say go. This time I have had has provided me with some fantastic thinking time, without pressure, and the stories and ideas have developed gradually.

The first project will involve you. It is still formulating, and I need to gather some more research and prepare a study plan. But it is looking promising. Whether it will work only time will tell but I am rather quite excited.

The other project will be a script, a series for TV. It is based in a uni, think the Inbetweeners but older, but from the staff point of view. If my idea continues to develop as it stands, the basis of the uni will become less of a factor, as the characters really do tell their own story.

Am I mad sharing my idea? Will somebody steal it? Well, if they do then I will take it as a compliment. As they say, no idea is original, it is the way you tell it that’s important.

I haven’t been a writer for the past six months or so, and this does not worry me. Sure I have had wobbles, slight panics that the dream was sliding out of sight, but there is always more to be had. Writing takes time, but it isn’t just the telling of the story, it is the formulating, the preparation, the time to watch the world.

Anyway, I am here, I am dipping in and out but I am thinking, always thinking. I hope you are too.

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7 Responses to “I don’t have Writers Block!!”

  1. Jessica S February 4, 2012 at 9:31 pm #

    I can so completely relate with quite a few of your sentiments here, Ellie. 🙂 That’s why I always say I’m suffering from writer’s ROT, not block. When I look at what I’m working on, it might as well be sitting there in a decomposition pile. (Get it? De-composition. ?? *cough*)

    If there’s one thing I’ve learned about you, Ellie, it’s that you really can do whatever you put your mind to. You’re amazing, and I’m glad to hear you’re working on a couple of new projects. 🙂

    I look forward to hearing more about them as you progress.

    • Ellie February 5, 2012 at 8:07 pm #

      Oh I am sure I bore people really when I am in the flow and chatting about the latest project. I know I get too focused and can only talk about what is on the tip of my fingers. I get that fear that I shouldnt talk more about the project, but I have to blog to keep up the interest…I have been watching other writers on the run up to their book launch and they always seem to be able to switch topics to be varied. I guess it is something to work on.

      Writers rot love it, and yeah, even with the explanation it took a while for my brain to click..I am putting that down to the brain reading what it expects to see rather than what is actually there lol!

  2. grumphy January 31, 2012 at 9:42 pm #

    Wow! Powerfull writing! I Like it!
    I wasn’t trying to get your goat, etc, I was just commenting. Hope you are not annoyed with me … :/
    But seriously, you rock, you always have. You’ve done shedloads more than me, and then just htd a dry patch.
    So now you remember. Good. 🙂

    • Ellie February 1, 2012 at 9:53 pm #

      and I remember thanks to you – if you didnt push me, I think I wouldn’t have taken that first step. Poor old Gavs editing work this week has taken a sidestep, but I had to push it to one side for myself. Yay me, and yay you for being such a fab friend.

  3. Laney January 31, 2012 at 9:38 pm #

    Always thinking Ellie, always thinking. It’s enough to drive a person mad some days. But this is the path we choose to walk. Walk it;) Glad you are well. I hear fire in your words. Fire is good;))

    • Ellie February 1, 2012 at 9:51 pm #

      Fire is what I have been waiting for. I need that fire for the stamina we need to get somewthing worthwhile done!

      and I am glad you are always thinking too – tis nice to know you are not alone

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